Filed under: Random Blather
2010 seems to be quite the year for getting married. Every now and then, someone’s getting hitched. And it’s really interesting to observe how different couples go about the whole “I do” thing.
Some are so nonchalant about it…to the extent that it’s kinda weird that they don’t really seem to care but really cool at the same time.
Others do it the romantic, old fashion, on one bended knee way.
And yet, there’s also the typical Singaporean it’s time to get married, so let’s get a house way.
All good though. I’m really glad to know my friends are getting on with their lives and starting a new one soon. 
I wonder when will it be Mich’s turn? Heehee.
Me? The day that I say “I do” would be the day that i decide to grow up. I just can’t imagine starting another life (no matter if i had met The One or not) with another person if I have not quite decided that I’ve just had enough irresponsible fun. It’s one thing to be responsible for yourself and another to be responsible for yourself because you are now part of something bigger than yourself.
Filed under: Random Blather
I came across this piece and was struck by the fact that I feel exactly the same!!
I now know im not alone.
Filed under: Life
A sure sign that age is catching up with you is that you realize your metabolism is not quite what it used to be. I can’t eat all that rubbish anymore and still expect it to just disappear. Now, all those snacks will show their ugly little faces on my arms, butt and around my tummy. Boo. 
I was just looking at some of the pictures I had taken in late 2008 and I was like, what, 5 freaking kg lighter. And looked so much better. I feel like this fat ugly slob of an auntie now. Gah.
This is a little late but i am going to lose weight in 2010. I refuse to submit to the ravages of time! *add the theatrical drumroll pls*
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On another note, had a short chat with a certain someone who’s been there and done that..and was surprised to be advised that I should seriously re-evaluate my current relationship. Rationale being that I’ve been in this relationship for over a year and it’s time to either get on to the next stage, or move on! Time is of the essence!
Really???
I didn’t think i needed to but after the subject was brought up (of course, i had ranted for a bit first), I was like thinking, “Yeaaaah, maybeeee. I’m growing older, not younger!”
“Well? Is it or is it not? Can u quickly make up your mind? Why do you need to take so long to make such a simple decision?” groused the Firstborn.
“Errrrrr..I’m fkkdndg jdigc hsjdjdjjdjejesjjefhdhdhhdsj..you fnrjlphpdnw…..”
“Hang on, hang on! You’re mumbling to yourself. I can’t understand what you’re saying!!”
“Errrr, okay. I said i’m not sure. I’m okay with anything. What about you?” semi-mumbled the Middle Child again.
“Yes, of course we could always do what I want, but here’s the thing…I’m asking YOU! Your reply is as good as not replying all. And really, you should try to speak more clearly next time. It can be so difficult to understand you! cried the Firstborn, tugging at her hair in frustration.
Familiar? I just realized that most of the friends I click well with are Firstborns; decisive, opinionated, vocal and as some may say, uptight.
I wonder if this applies to boyfriends as well?
Filed under: MEOW!
I am being slowly but surely driven bonkers. Sometimes, I think i am so lucky to have such a guy in my life. On other days, I swear that if he were standing on a ledge, I would push him over to his doom myself.
It may be a different upbringing that is the cause of all this, but nontheless, his mind can be so closed that I find it difficult to believe that it’s not stupidity masquerading as narrow-mindedness.
I abhor people who make empty promises. People who say things that they don’t mean end up with no respect from me. I find it difficult to trust or believe anything that they say, since at least 20% of things they say are not valid. If you say you will think about it, then jolly go and think about it. If you are completely not keen on the idea or just plain don’t want to do it, then don’t say you will “think about it” when you have decided to wipe the whole incident clean off your mind.
Do this often enough and I will definitely label you as a fraud.
True, saying no directly might make me a little more mad or hurt my feelings a little, but hey! aren’t we here for the long term? What’s making me a little more angry for just a while more compared to being labelled a fraud whose words can’t be trusted?
Think about it, think of it…why not say that you don’t give a shit about it, at least that would be more accurate.
Filed under: Life
As I Grew Older
It was a long time ago.
I have almost forgotten my dream.
But it was there then,
In front of me,
Bright like a sun–
My dream.
And then the wall rose,
Rose slowly,
Slowly,
Between me and my dream.
Rose until it touched the sky–
The wall.
Shadow.
I am black.
I lie down in the shadow.
No longer the light of my dream before me,
Above me.
Only the thick wall.
Only the shadow.
My hands!
My dark hands!
Break through the wall!
Find my dream!
Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun,
Into a thousand whirling dreams
Of sun!Langston Hughes
What about you? Are you still in pursuit of your dream, or is all that you can see just a thick black wall? Not that house or car or dream holiday you are chasing now, but the ones that you made when you were little. Can you still remember?
Being still awake at 3am in the morning, having sifted through 2 albums of my familys’ past and looking at the current updates on Facebook, bring me the strangest of thoughts. By all rights, I should be irritated and cranky on not being able to sleep, and yet somehow, I find it strangely satisfying….To be able to surf the net for beautiful poetry in the middle of the night when the rest of the world is sleeping, on a weekday no less.
This is a luxury, I feel. One that I am at least well able to afford.
Sometimes, the nicest things in life really don’t cost anything.
Filed under: Random Blather
I need to work the exercise routine back into my life.
For the first time in my life, I really think I am fat. It’s disgusting. I don’t want to turn into one of those calorie watching, weight obsessed girls. I need to get back into shape, right here, right now.
Went for Bodylicious today and felt my legs wobble. I will have my clothes fit loosely again, even if it kills me.
Sometimes, we just invent too many excuses for things we know we should do but don’t want to do. Any reason not to do it, no matter if it is really a valid reason or just an excuse, will do.
Fat, fat, fat. This has got to stop. I refuse to look ugly in my photos!
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On another note, 26 Dec will be coming soon. I actually created an Excel spreadsheet to keep track of the accommodation, transport and itinerary. A first! But you know what, the stupid excel is proving itself to be most useful.
26, 26, 26!!!!! Can’t wait!
Filed under: Salsa
Went to the SISF party last night and surprisingly, this year there are so many attendees! Didn’t really dance much becuz my ankles decided to act up again and every step was a pain.
Abit sad that i missed taking part in the rueda circle even though I registered for it. Well, it was $900 vs rueda so not much contest there! 
Wonder if they made it this year…
Whilst sitting around, I watched the JJ rueda team do some social rueda and they’ve seriously gotten better. It was nice to see them execute the super complicated moves and watch the caller shout out the loooooong commands with the hand signals and all. Almost had me wishing that i was on the team for a moment there.
And I just realized that most of the people I know in salsa are on some performance team. I feel inadequete! hahahaah…and to think that when i first started out, i was quite determined that i’d join a team someday..how things have changed! Ah well…
Filed under: MEOW!
I hate it when food that’s meant for me disappears. Like why can’t people just eat their own food???
It’s mine, mine, mine…do you hear!!!!!
*roar*
Filed under: MEOW!
There’s a saying that there’s no such thing as a stupid question. I beg to differ.
All questions when asked out of context are stupid questions. It’s not a matter of whether the person asking is smart or stupid, but that the question itself is irrelevant to the situation at hand and therefore deemed stupid.
That said, if you asked a stupid question but are convinced that it is not a stupid question, the onus is on you to justify and validate why since no logical connection can be easily or quickly made. Simply insisting that it isn’t a stupid question doesn’t quite cut it. In fact, the very action of insisting that an irrelevant question is appropriate with no validation is the very thing that will convince me that most of your brain cells must be fried.
Which brings me to the point that if we spend more time talking and less time making sure that the point we are trying to make is understood, the conversation isn’t going to go very far. In fact, all that one is generating is noise. If you’re just concerned about saying your piece but don’t care if the other party understands it, what is the point of saying it all in the first place?
Some people baffle me with their noise and irrelevance.
As you can tell, i’m in a bad mood today.
